hey , i havent been writing much here i think . and now i am here to write again in you . there were hopes , i swear and there is expectations . i dont put high expectations on you instead on myself . not because of this and thats but because i think if i did my part maybe you will see it and you will change together with me somehow for our family . as the days got nearer to the day your tagging is going to drop i swear my mind has been going wild about so many things . no matter how much i try to push it away . i have been keeping myself busy all the time to keep my fear hidden well and all . i look at you and somehow i dont want to lose everything that we have build up so far . please my dear , i hope that the choices of giving you the space that you needed the trust that needed wont make me regret any of it in the end somehow . i gave everything i needed to you , and honestly if i were to lose i think i won...
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we been through what others have never thought of us . it was sweet it was a torture . but we never let others know that we been through all those . our fights we dont go around telling people . what we portray to others is the loving us . so people dont come judge our relationship cause you know nothing about us . we been through ups and downs until we can go crazy but its not a glamourous thing to tell the world . what we been through is what makes us in-separable . you know someone used to ask me , will i ever regret meeting my husband ? my answer that time was so unsure that i said i dont know . if someone were to ask me today , i would say i have never regret knowing him . i have never want someone else instead of him . he is the best i could have . although he is not perfect and all . but he will always tries his best in giving me what i wanted . i would say i am someone that appreciate effort ....
it wasnt as easy as i think it was when im with you . us meeting was like a fairytale . it also happens too sudden to me . its like we meet , we make out we got a kid and we got married . sometimes i really wonder are we both ready for this ? but after being with you for a year plus now . im thankful that you are always here . we have our ups and downs . but i will try my best to give you everything that i am capable of . i know it wasnt easy being my another half , i got a freaking attitude . that to be honest sometimes i know its gonna bring me no where . but i cant help it sometimes . im still trying my best to change it as i know being someone without an attitude will definitely bring me further down our road . i can never imagine a life with you or our kids . always remember there will be a rainbow after each storm . i know you have been trying hard also on your end . s...