Day 1

 Actually i can never imagine not having you around somehow ,

But it just must be dealt with somehow .

The moment you step in i cant see you another minute cause i know i would cry somehow .

And you say before you want me to be strong outside no matter what so when you inside you can focus and dont worry .

I hold on to my tears as you went in but honestly i lost it in the cab over to find korkor .

Whenever i think of you i cant even hold on to my tears anymore .

I dont care what people say about you outside or what so ever i know i love you like how you love me too . 

Bi , whenever i in a cab i cried cause i know if you are around i wont ever have to open the doors for myself or even to look after myself cause i know you will be there to take good care of me . 

We went to buy lobsters today and when we got home there was one lobster that looks like you cause of the hand . 

Even though its a bit rude to compare you to a lobster but i just miss you damn a lot .

I look at the lobster and my mind is just full of you but i tell myself dont cry you wont want to see me cry no matter what .

Played mahjong to keep myself busy today i won a bit atleast i can have money to eat and all ☺️☺️ 

Bi dont worry okay i love you and im waiting for you no matter what . Everything around me just remains me of you somehow . And its really hard not to think of you . But i promise i will be strong for you and the baby okay . 

I hope everything is okay inside . I hope you wont fight and all . Remember you have me and xiao bao and xiao xiao bao waiting to see you come out and build our own family up . Dont you disappoint me okay . 

I love you ken sim and i will always love you 💕and only you 😚