感谢你给我的快乐时光， 可能现在应该结束了吧？ 不是不爱了而是觉得很多东西都变了。 可能你只是习惯有我的存在， 而不是是还爱着我。 如果有来生我们在来试试。 如果缘分让我们在见到彼此， 我们在一起吧。 如果没有的话， 那我祝你幸福。
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hey , i havent been writing much here i think . and now i am here to write again in you . there were hopes , i swear and there is expectations . i dont put high expectations on you instead on myself . not because of this and thats but because i think if i did my part maybe you will see it and you will change together with me somehow for our family . as the days got nearer to the day your tagging is going to drop i swear my mind has been going wild about so many things . no matter how much i try to push it away . i have been keeping myself busy all the time to keep my fear hidden well and all . i look at you and somehow i dont want to lose everything that we have build up so far . please my dear , i hope that the choices of giving you the space that you needed the trust that needed wont make me regret any of it in the end somehow . i gave everything i needed to you , and honestly if i were to lose i think i won...
we been through what others have never thought of us . it was sweet it was a torture . but we never let others know that we been through all those . our fights we dont go around telling people . what we portray to others is the loving us . so people dont come judge our relationship cause you know nothing about us . we been through ups and downs until we can go crazy but its not a glamourous thing to tell the world . what we been through is what makes us in-separable . you know someone used to ask me , will i ever regret meeting my husband ? my answer that time was so unsure that i said i dont know . if someone were to ask me today , i would say i have never regret knowing him . i have never want someone else instead of him . he is the best i could have . although he is not perfect and all . but he will always tries his best in giving me what i wanted . i would say i am someone that appreciate effort ....
it wasnt as easy as i think it was when im with you . us meeting was like a fairytale . it also happens too sudden to me . its like we meet , we make out we got a kid and we got married . sometimes i really wonder are we both ready for this ? but after being with you for a year plus now . im thankful that you are always here . we have our ups and downs . but i will try my best to give you everything that i am capable of . i know it wasnt easy being my another half , i got a freaking attitude . that to be honest sometimes i know its gonna bring me no where . but i cant help it sometimes . im still trying my best to change it as i know being someone without an attitude will definitely bring me further down our road . i can never imagine a life with you or our kids . always remember there will be a rainbow after each storm . i know you have been trying hard also on your end . s...
在茫茫人海中能遇见你真的是我的福气吧。我知道我的脾气没有很好，我的想法也没有很成熟，我也偶尔会发些小脾气。我的面子大过天，这你也知道的。不管我做错了什么我都从不道歉不是我不知道说几句对不起事情就一定能能解决，可是要我开口真的很难。我知道我生命里希望永远都有你的存在可是我还是开不了口。我觉得我很幸福因为你从来没有放弃我。也从来不会说你不要我。你也有你的小脾气可是你总是能让就让我，我真的全部看在眼里的。 记得小小宝出生后你第一次当爸爸的时候，你虽然很多事情都不会可是你都很尽力去学，忍下你所有的脾气去陪他，和他一起玩，偶尔放我出去玩放松一下自己，老实说我头头的时候都没有你做的那么好呢。我脾气又坏很多时候都控制不了会发脾气。幸好有你在要不然我一定累坏的。我们都有自己的坏脾气，很多时候我都忘了要学会控制住自己这样我们都会很快乐。常常在吵架的时候我都会说一些我知道以后一定会后悔的事可是我还是忍不住我的坏脾气。 我算是幸运的吧，因为你一直都在忍受我的坏脾气，我的一切。我知道我如果没有这一切我其实真的什么都没有了。我很想像其她的女人一样温柔贤惠可惜我真的不是那种女孩可惜我只能做的就是在我的范围里我一定会做的。不管即使有时候你要的不是在我的范围里面我也是会尽我所能去做好给你。因为你真的对我来说重要了。
Day 5
Opps you know i actually forgotten to write blog yesterday but hehehe you understand one right 🥺🥺 i got write to you so no worries hor . I was in cloud nine yesterday when i receive your letter and all . I just cant hold back my tears anymore and bursted out crying like a baby at the void deck 😭😭 i have never thought you meant so much more to me than anything . You know de i very weak de only appearance show to people that i like very tough like that but actually i abit abit jiu cry liao 🥺🥺 but shhh only you know only okay hahaha 🤣🤣 bi , havent even a week yet and everything seems so different without you 😳😳hais how am i even going to survive another few months but im still holding strong okay so dont you worry and all . Like what i told you before in the letter i didnt do much but just go find minion they all and mahjong lor so standard hahaha with your pi qiu i feel so lucky yesterday 😍😍 maybe you were with me yesterday bah hahaha but you sleeping then come find me r...